When is it time to give up on your dream. When you have been rejected twice, three times or fifteen? What if you have never really given it your best try, really given your dream the fighting chance it deserved.
When does a dream become unrealistic or unreasonable, when someone from the outside looking is says it is?
If someone tells you over and over again that it is impossible, it becomes impossible. That should make you chase your dream even more. Push you to chase it down and hold it in your hands so tight so it would never escape you.
Not a lot of people ever catch their dreams... the reasons for that may not be the same but the outcome is. Broken hearts and broken dreams litter the ground. The let down is always the same, huge, no matter how big or small the dream was.
So now what, now the the dream has left you in the dust. You have outgrown your dream, even though you are only 24. Past your prime, some people say, to have a dream like that. Its time to find a new one, one that is "realistic" for who you are or where you are in your life.
Thats stupid...the point of having a dream is to make the impossible become possible.
Remember, having hope is different than having a dream. Even though they walk hand in hand, they are still two very different concepts.
My dream was never to graduate with a bachelors degree or to work my ass off at a store in the mall just so people can assume I am stupid. The fact is I am smarter than most of the customers who walk through those doors and the only comfort I get from their arrogance is the fact that I know I will be more successful than they ever will be.
It was to have a career that completely revolved around horses. Some people think that is stupid, that I am just a crazy horse girl. The truth of the matter is that you need to be tough as nails to be successful in the equine world. I know I'm tough enough, I just don't have the funds to make it happen.
I altered that dream so I could get married and someday have a family. I fill the emptiness of never reaching that dream with school, work, and time with my own horse. Slowly I am realizing I will never really fill that empty feeling with anything but what is suppose to be there, a career with horses.
Its too late now. I am "too old" to be starting a career as a trainer and I don't have the money to fund that kind of operation. I've poured too much money into school to back out now... So what now?
School, work, and Georgia will have to be my substitute... My husband will always support me in whatever I want to do but my feeling to do "what is best" will always overcome my overwhelming feeling to follow my dream.
Its not going to happen for me... I can only blame myself.
I guess I will just have to put my whole heart into something I never really wanted, a career that never even crossed my mind until this last year.
My only hope now, not dream, is that my career will help me make enough money so I can feed my need to keep horses in my life. I will forever Work to Live and will never Live to Work...
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I appreciate blog posts like this, because inspriational posts are the best pieces of writing to read. When people say that one can do anything they put their minds to, I completely believe this statement. In my opinion, when people tell me that I can't do something, it makes me push for it even more. I never want to give up because someone else told me that what I'm trying to accomplish is impossible- I just feel like this is just negatory to me. I don't believe in negative comments to a point where they'd effect what I'm trying to do with my life. Yes, things get hard sometimes and if things weren't hard- then it wouldn't make you grow and learn. Growing and learning is the most important part of living one's life. If everything was easy and everything worked out exactly the way you wanted it to, no process of personal gain would come from any given situation. Personal gain helps one grow and be able to adapt to any situation being thrown at you. Be strong. Be brave. Be as positive as you can be everyday.
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